Momma said there'd be days like these...

*SIGH* Today is one of those kinda days.. This whole week has been an emotonal rollercoaster and I'm ready for the ride to stop or slow down.. Jackson started not feeling well on Saturday and when he climbed up in my lap Sunday night at church and fell asleep, I KNEW something was wrong! Sure enough, by the time church was over and we went home, his temp was over 103! SOO.. We loaded up, drove to Opp to the clinic and I checked him for flu and strep, both of which were negative, looked in his ears and then went back home and dealt with fever all night! Monday morning, I got Stetson ready for school, planning to take Jackson to work with me have his ears rechecked just incase I overlooked something...WELL... we get there at 8:00..temp is still over 103 WITH Tylenol AND Motrin... ear's are fine.. throat is fine...however, he hears NO air exchange on the left side so we head on over to Mizell to have a chest x-ray and blood work, repeat flu and strep test and an RSV test... we get back to the clinic and I am greeted with "He has pneumonia on the left side, I'm admitting him!" WONDERFUL! We get our admit papers and I head to Elba to get some clothes together for us and lay out school clothes for the next few days for Stetson so his daddy wouldn't have to worry about it. WE get to Andalusia and get checked in and we were there until about 9:30 last night. Needless to say, I am exhausted! Thankfully, Jackson is MUCH better! My mother-in-law took off work today and he stayed with her so he wouldn't have to go to daycare (and I could go back to work) and he'll be hanging out with Stephen tomorrow...

I get home today and Stetson doesn't meet me at the front door. He's sitting on the couch. I go in and steal some love like usual and I can tell something just isn't right. I asked him for his backpack and he says its in the car..I send him to go get it and he comes back inside and SLAMS the front door. I ask him what all that is about as he brings me his backpack and he breaks down.. I mean, the flood gates opened and the waters flowed! "I got a red dot".. excuse me? He repeated, "I got a red dot today"... I opened his folder to find a red dot, followed by an explanation! I was FLOORED!!! Stetson has always been the child who you could look at the wrong way and he would break down...and he comes home with a RED DOT.. he gave me his version.. I gave him the version I had written down.. he changed his story to match that one some and then came the bad part... the consequences... :( His DS is up until his teacher tells me his behavior has changed...no TV...no computer...and he got a spanking... I never really understood the whole "this hurts me more than it hurts you" when I was growing up until I had kids and had to discipline them! It breaks my heart BUT he knows I will NOT tolerate bad behavior or talking back...and I think we re-established that tonight! It really breaks my heart! I'm not saying he is perfect, I'm not one of those kind of moms who never thinks her kids do wrong.. I will be the first to admit when they have messed up.. but I KNOW Stetson is a good child and he knows right from wrong and how he is supposed to act and behave and I think thats what bothers me the most! I don't want people to think that I haven't instilled those things into him... I did have to get up and walk out at one point because I was trying to be sooo serious. He looked at me with tears in his eyes, running out from under his glasses and said "it's not about the dot momma..it's not about the dot...it's about going to school, learning and having fun..it's not about the dot." *sigh* I love that kid!

On another note, I do want to ask those of you that may read this to be much in prayer over a situation. The guy (Nick) that I was dating before Stephen & I started dating found out this week that his 3 yr old daughter, Allie, has Leukemia. She is at Children's and they have already started her on chemo. Please lift them up in prayer! I found out from Nick's mom on Monday night while I was at the hospital with Jackson. As I was sitting there praying and talking to God, asking him to wrap his arms around Nick and Amanda and the rest of their families, this verse came so heavily on my heart... I knew God was speaking this to me to share with Amanda...

Isaiah 41:10 (New International Version)
10 So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.


How awesome is our God! ~Heather